First Beach Weekend

So, I'm going to the beach this weekend, and I'm terrified. I haven't been working out at all because my lungs have been shit. I'm also terrified because I'm going with R and he's so gorgeous and I'm so bleck. I don't know. I'm gunna wear my bathing suit and probably a sun dress over it. I hope it's fun.

Weekend Adventures

      I haven't posted in a few days because I've been really busy this weekend mixed with also being pretty depressed lately. So here's is just a little update.
     Friday: Friday I went shopping and got some new clothes for school. I was feel pretty awesome. Then when I got home my brother and I got into a fight and I decided to eat a ton of junk food and then go to sleep instead of dealing with it.
     Saturday: Saturday I went to the beach and on my Uncle's boat. I was feeling good and having some drinks and then we ordered pizza. I didn't feel bad about it because I was a little tipsy. Then I got really bloated after eating and my uncle called me fat. After the beach, I told my friend I was going to take a shower and then we could hang out later. Come 10 PM, no one had texted me to hangout so I was going to go to bed. I went on twitter to see all my friends tweeting about hanging out together and they hadn't invited me. Cue eating an entire bag of cheesy popcorn.
     Sunday: Sunday I went into the city to visit one of my friends who is graduating soon. I went with my college roommate, and of course her family owns a bakery in the North End. We ate some sweets but then walked around a lot. Then I had a spinach and cheese calzone. Not diet drinks. Then we went to our school and our friend made pasta with sauce and buttery bread. And my roommate brought cannolis for dessert.
     I have to weigh in on Wednesday and I'm scared to fuck. I need to stop using food to cope with my depression. It's so bad. :/

Steve Miller and the Beach

     I'm a huge beach junkie and I haven't been to the ocean all summer. Since I've been extremely depressed lately, my mom decided we'd go visit my aunt's beach house. It's not the ocean, but it's still nice. I got a sunburn. Mom didn't pack me any food, so all I ate was a cereal bar (90). It was a fun time and when you're out in the sun you don't really think about food that much. Mom ordered pizza for early dinner and I had a couple slices, but I don't feel too guilty about it because it's all I ate today.
     In a couple minutes I'll be leaving to go see Steve Miller Band tonight! I'm super excited. I hope that it's a lot of fun, even though I'm going with my family. Plus, dancing and jumping around at concerts burns a ton of calories. I'll post more tomorrow when I have free time. Hope you all are doing well! <3