Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 13

Last Weight: 118.0

Todays Weight: 116.8

Difference: -1.2 lbs

Last Goal: 116.5

Goal Met? No

New Goal: 115.4 by 8/6

     Almost made my goal. I was down to 115.4 but I went on vacation with my boyfriend and gained a little back. This week I know I can get it off again though.

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 12

Last Weight: 117.8

Todays Weight: 118.0

Difference: +0.2

Last Goal: 116.6

Goal Met? No

New Goal: 116.5 by 7/30

     I am a fatty fat fat fuck. ugh. I'm so mad. I've managed to lose and gained a matter of 2.5lbs in a week and now I'm right back to where I was. Fuck my life. I need to stop binging. I'm sticking with 800 calories per week and also going to exercise. I need to lose 1.5 lbs a week to reach my goal.

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 11

Last Weight: 118.0

Todays Weight: 117.8

Difference: -0.2

Last Goal: 117.0

Goal Met? No

New Goal: 116.6 by 7/23

     Ok so I didn't meet my goal, but at least I'm losing weight again! If I want to reach my goal of 108lbs by September 10th, then I have to be losing 1.2lbs per week. So I'm upping the anti. I'm eating 900 calories this week and probably going down to 800 next week. If I don't meet my goals, then that means punishment in some form. And when I meet my goal weights, I will be rewarded! I can't wait to be skinny for school, especially because I'm seeing A Day to Remember with my best friends the week we go back! Yay!

 

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 10

Last Weight: 117.8

Todays Weight: 118

Difference: +0.2

Last Goal: 116.8

Goal Met? No

New Goal: 117.0 by 7/16

     Blah. Yuck. I thought I'd gain more this week after all the shit I've been eating. Since I finish my antibiotics off Saturday, I'm going to start restricting again. Honestly, I'm excited. I miss the hungry feeling. Also, even though I did gain weight, I can tell that I have more muscle. Especially in my arms. They were so weak and now I'm starting to get some definition. So yeah. I've changed my calorie intake goal to 1086 on MFP and it says I should lose 1.1lbs a week on that. I'm just hoping for 1lb a week! I'm going to try to stick to it as much as possible!

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 9

Last Weight: 117.6

Todays Weight: 117.8

Difference: +0.2

Last Goal: 115.6

Goal Met? No

New Goal: 116.8 by 7/9

     Pretty much the same since last week. I blame the drugs I was on for making me gain weight. Now it's time to get it off. Even though I'm not restricting too much, MFP says that I should still lose 0.9lbs a week while eating 1200 calories a day. I'm also exercising so that definitely helps. My weight was a pound more yesterday and I think the jog I went for really helped to get it off. Also, I'm sorry I didn't get to posting pictures yesterday. My camera battery died and it takes forever to charge. I will 100% do them today though.

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 8

Last Weight: 115.4

Todays Weight: 117.6

Difference:+2.2

Last Goal: 114.4

Goal Met? No

New Goal: 115.6 by 6/18

     I fucking gained and I'm pissed. I know it's probably just water weight or from drinking so much beer this weekend. I actually 100% blame all the alcohol I drank. I drank Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday, and this most recent Sunday. 7/8 days. Fuck. However, now it's Wednesday and I haven't had a drink since Sunday afternoon. I'm proud of myself. This week I'm not going to drink as much alcohol and I'm also going to barely eat because oh hey, TMJ. I can barely open my mouth to get food in and the pain is making me nauseous. Awesome... Well at least I know that I'll lose weight..

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 7

Last Weight: 116.6

Todays Weight: 115.4

Difference: -1.2

Last Goal: 115.6

Goal Met? Yes

New Goal: 114.4 by 6/11

     This week has been weird. Lots of not sleeping. Really poor eating. All weekend I kind of... forgot to eat. I didn't do it on purpose; it was just something I didn't think of. Friday night I went over this guys house, we'll call him Romeo. I felt nervous going over there so I didn't want to eat anything before. And then I didn't want to eat anything in front of him either. I did have 5 non-light beers though, so I classified that as dinner. It was enough calories to be! 

     Then Saturday  I was supposed to get up early and get my nails done and then drive to Providence to see my friends. But Romeo didn't let me leave his place until noon. I scrambled around at my house for clothes and then spent the next 4 hours in a car. We were going to a show in Provi and I forgot to eat all day. The first thing I ate that day was at 11PM after the show at our friend's house. I had a hamburger bun. And only because I almost pulled my signature move of blacking out in the front row of the show. #fail

     Sunday I had a donut and pizza because I was with my friends. The pizza I pulled everything off of and just ate the bread. I also had about 6 glasses of wine.

     Basically I've just been consuming all of my calories in alcohol. But that's nothing new here....

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 6

Last Weight: 117.8

Todays Weight: 116.6

Difference: -1.2

Last Goal: 116.8

Goal Met? Yes

New Goal: 115.6 by 6/4

     I'm so happy that I lost weight. I didn't know if I would. I've been drinking a lot and getting a bit of a beer belly. Gross. I also went out to dinner with one of my friends last night and my meal was over 1800 calories. Gross. But I did lose! And now I want to just lose more! Time to get my ass into gear! I'm seeing R a week from Saturday and I want to look hot for that!

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 5

Last Weight: 112.8 (5/17)

Todays Weight: 117.8

Difference:+5.0

New Goal: 116.8 by 5/28

     I honestly don't think my weight is right. There is no way I've gained 5lbs since Saturday! I'm so mad! It might just be from eating so so so much food yesterday for my birthday. I ate over 2,220 calories! I'm hoping I'll lose weight quickly. I'm going to start getting into an exercise routine, which maybe I'll post about later. Anyways, I hope to lose 1lb by next week. It's going to be hard because of all this birthday cake everyone keeps giving me. I'm just going to have to do a lot of cardio to burn it off!

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 4

Last Weight: 124.6

Todays Weight: 120

Difference: -4.6

Last Goal: 122.8 by 8/28

Goal Met? Yes

New Goal: 118.5 by 9/11

     I finally fucking lost weight! I'm so excited. I know, I skipped the last weight in, but I was so depressed it was not even something that I wanted to think of. This past week I have cut down on junk food so much. I haven't had a binge in a week I think. Being at school is great because I can go out and buy whatever food I want. Plus, I can go to the gym again! Yay! I went today and it was amazing! It's nice to be back. 

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 3

Last Weight: 124.4

Todays Weight: 124.6

Difference: +0.2

Last Goal: 122.4 by 8/21

Goal Met? No

New Goal: 122.8 by 8/28

     Another gain! No surprise there, because I'm a failure. All I've been doing is binging and being depressed and having panic attacks. I can't stand it. I woke up this morning and couldn't fit into my jeans, so I had to wear my "fat pants" which are usually super loose. Now they're not. What's really bothering me is that I'm seeing some of the people I used to be friends with this weekend. I want to be skinny to show them up. But, that's not going to happen. I'm planning on only eating 1 meal today, but tomorrow my dad is taking me to Wendy's. I hate feeling so fat.

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 2

Last Weight: 122.4

Todays Weight: 124.4

Difference: +2.0

Last Goal: 120.4 by 8/14

Goal Met? No

New Goal: 122.4 by 8/21

     I'm so pissed at myself. I haven't weighed this much in over 2 years. I am disgusted by this number. I keep blaming the gain on quitting smoking and being stressed out. But there is no one to blame but myself. I lost control. And I need to get that control back.

      So, what's the plan? Obviously what I'm doing isn't working, so new plan. I lowered my calorie allowance to 500 net calories a day. I have to jog 2 times a week for 30 minutes while I'm still working. When I go back to school, it has to be 3 times a week. I must walk 10,000 steps a day at least on work days. Food that I can have whenever will be fruits and vegetables. Food that is limited is beans, rice cakes, low fat dairy, avocado, quinoa. Food that is off limits except when I have no choice: bread, rice, junk food. yes this means putting my bagel thins in the freezer until I can control myself.

     I need to regain control of my diet, my weight, and my life. My goal is to be 117 lbs by the time school starts. Wish me luck!

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 1

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In! From now on I'll just call it WWW.

Last Weight: 121.4

Todays Weight: 122.4

Difference: +1.0

Goal: 120.4 by 8/14

     ugh. I gained weight. It's because I've been binging like crazy. When I get upset, all I do is eat. I need to find something else to do besides eat. I was smoking before, but now that's I'm quitting I'm not sure what to do. Also, I'm going on 4+ day with no poop. It's gross, I know, but that has to add to some of the reason why I gained. Even with my binges my calories intake was still under 2000 a day and I've been exercising. Gaining weight just all around sucks.

     So what's my plan for this next week before weigh-in again? I'm going to be really strict with myself. No snacking after dinner even if I have calories left over. I'm going to try spreading my dinner out. Like eat one thing at a time and then wait to eat more. That way I can see if I'm really hungry or not. Exercise cannot be skipped. No excuses. I'm hoping to drop 2 lbs this week. I NEED to drop 2 lbs this week.

     I still need to stay positive though. If I'm not positive, then I'll get depressed and when I'm depressed I binge and when I binge, I gain weight. A lady at work gave me a gift card to Starbucks, and that's awesome because it's a 1 mile walk from my school. So there's an easy excuse to walk 2 miles! And black coffee with splenda has barely any calories. If I stay strict with myself, I can be 116lbs by the time I go back to school! I just need to stay motivated and stop being so damn depressed!