Showing posts with label restricting. Show all posts
Showing posts with label restricting. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

7/14 Intake

Breakfast:
Coffee - 1
Morning Snack:
Coffee - 2
Yogurt - 100
Lunch:
Pita - 80
Lightlife "turkey" - 50
Mustard - 0
Fruit Cup - 40
Afternoon Snack:
Baby Carrot - 35
Potato Salad - 107
Dinner:
Seafood Salad - 113
Carrots - 60
Ketchup - 15
Corn - 150
Veggie Burger - 110
Lettuce - 10
Total: 873

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 9

Last Weight: 117.6
Todays Weight: 117.8
Difference: +0.2
Last Goal: 115.6
Goal Met? No
New Goal: 116.8 by 7/9
     Pretty much the same since last week. I blame the drugs I was on for making me gain weight. Now it's time to get it off. Even though I'm not restricting too much, MFP says that I should still lose 0.9lbs a week while eating 1200 calories a day. I'm also exercising so that definitely helps. My weight was a pound more yesterday and I think the jog I went for really helped to get it off. Also, I'm sorry I didn't get to posting pictures yesterday. My camera battery died and it takes forever to charge. I will 100% do them today though.

Monday, June 30, 2014

Plan for July

     Seeing as it's the last day of June, I thought that I'd post my diet / fitness plan for July. I'm trying to keep it as healthy as possible, which is difficult for me, but I know it will make me feel better overall.
     Diet Plan: I'm planning on starting the month eating 1200 calories a day. I need to be eating a healthy amount while I'm still recovering from Lyme Disease. If I'm not losing weight, then I will decrease my intake after I'm off antibiotics. I'm going to eat 3 meals a day and two snacks. Every meal will be planned. I'm also trying to incorporate more protein into my diet.
     Fitness Plan: I want to be working out 6 days a week. This is my main focus for the month. Since I'm going to be eating more than usual, I want to take this chance to work on building my muscles up. Monday is ab day. Tuesday is cardio. Wednesday is leg day. Thursday is cardio. Friday is arm day. Saturday is cardio. Sunday is rest day. The exercises I have planned are mostly beginner exercises. I'm really excited to start getting fit instead of skinny.
     I know it's going to be really hard.  I keep reminding myself that I need to eat and exercise in order to be happy and healthy. All I've wanted to do lately is purge, but I can't throw up my antibiotics. Planning my meals ahead really helps with not binging. I'm still having trouble with my night time emotional eating. I'm making sure I don't do that the entire July though. I'm excited.

Thursday, May 29, 2014

5/28 Intake

Breakfast:
1/2 Banana - 45
Peanut Butter - 95
Raspberries - 53
Strawberries - 16
Almond Milk - 15
Morning Snack:
Yogurt - 100
Coffee - 1
Brownie - 205
Lunch:
Baby Spinach - 8
Cucumber - 11
Mushroom - 4
Tofu - 63
Oil - 20
Crackers - 190
Afternoon Snack:
Baby Carrots - 35
Peaches - 35
Strawberry Shortcake Roll - 240
Lays Chips - 160
French Onion Dip - 140
Cheese - 98
Dinner:
Salmon - 100
Corn - 80
Total: 1694
     Why did I eat so much? Ugh. I blame work. The people at work always try to fatten me up. Some lady brought in brownies and that just drove my hunger wild. I stuffed my face when I got home. I need to stop eating so much at night. I think I'm going to start going to bed earlier and that will help me to not eat so much junk. Also, I'm going to start reading before bed instead of watching TV because TV and snacks go too well together. I only was 494 over my goal of 1200, which isn't too too bad compared to some of my wild binges. Today feels like a better day though.

Monday, May 19, 2014

5/18 Intake

Lunch:
 Coffee - 180
Hash Browns - 130
Egg White Flat - 280
Afternoon Snack:
Ravioli - 380
Dinner:
English Muffin - 120
Egg - 70
Cheese - 80
Ketchup - 15
Juice - 50
Total: 1305
I ate a fuck ton. I was in Boston most of the day because I stayed with R Saturday night. He had a meeting Sunday so I walked around and got Dunkin' Donuts. I was insanely hungry too. I haven't been restricting as much as I used to lately. Mostly because I'm terrified of going to the hospital again. I still want to lose weight though. It's a struggle.

Sunday, December 1, 2013

SGD Starting tomorrow

So, I'm starting the skinny girl diet tomorrow. I'm going to follow it until I weigh 108lbs, which is my low weight. That's only 5lbs to lose. Then I will go back to eating ~600 calories a day, trying to maintain through the holiday season.
The original rules of the SGD are that you don't count fruits and vegetables, however that's almost the only thing I eat. If I go over at all, I can exercise it off. Any day that I spend at the gym, I can eat more. I'm usuing these as more of a net calorie guide line
THIS IS NOT A HEALTHY DIET. I DO NOT RECOMMEND THAT ANYBODY ATTEMPTS THIS DIET. And option besides the SGD is the "Healthy" skinny girl diet, which you can google if you are interested. It allows higher calories and you don't count fruits and veggies.

Monday, September 9, 2013

Ramblings

     So, I've been doing pretty good with cutting out snacking lately and I'm very proud of that. I think it's because I have to buy my own groceries and I only buy healthy stuff to snack on.
     I'm working on creating different eating plans for myself. I need frequent snacks because I have class form 8AM until 7PM and that's a long day. Sometimes I don't have time to come back to my dorm and make lunch. I've made my daily calorie limit 886, which I've calculated should allow me to lose 1-1.5lbs a week. Plus, I can still eat. And once I lose more weight, I will just recalculate this number and adjust.
     School is going great. I'm so happy. My teachers aren't that great. Lots of thick accents and getting off track. But, this semester I'm actually really excited about what I'm learning, so when I do readings and homeworks it's not super boring.
     I'm taking Anatomy and Physiology [but it's mostly physiology], Electrical Circuit Analysis and Design [basically circuit 1 & 2], C++ Programming, Chemistry [again because I failed last year], and Technical Communications [public speaking and technical writing]. It's a challenge, but I'm feeling really positive about this year. Although the class time isn't that much fun, I do enjoy learning so much.
     I'm such a nerd.
     Well anyways, sorry for this super boring post. I'm off to do a "learn how to use a microscope" lab. For the 4th time in my life. -__-

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 4

Last Weight: 124.6
Todays Weight: 120
Difference: -4.6
Last Goal: 122.8 by 8/28
Goal Met? Yes
New Goal: 118.5 by 9/11
     I finally fucking lost weight! I'm so excited. I know, I skipped the last weight in, but I was so depressed it was not even something that I wanted to think of. This past week I have cut down on junk food so much. I haven't had a binge in a week I think. Being at school is great because I can go out and buy whatever food I want. Plus, I can go to the gym again! Yay! I went today and it was amazing! It's nice to be back. 

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In - 2

Last Weight: 122.4
Todays Weight: 124.4
Difference: +2.0
Last Goal: 120.4 by 8/14
Goal Met? No
New Goal: 122.4 by 8/21
     I'm so pissed at myself. I haven't weighed this much in over 2 years. I am disgusted by this number. I keep blaming the gain on quitting smoking and being stressed out. But there is no one to blame but myself. I lost control. And I need to get that control back.
      So, what's the plan? Obviously what I'm doing isn't working, so new plan. I lowered my calorie allowance to 500 net calories a day. I have to jog 2 times a week for 30 minutes while I'm still working. When I go back to school, it has to be 3 times a week. I must walk 10,000 steps a day at least on work days. Food that I can have whenever will be fruits and vegetables. Food that is limited is beans, rice cakes, low fat dairy, avocado, quinoa. Food that is off limits except when I have no choice: bread, rice, junk food. yes this means putting my bagel thins in the freezer until I can control myself.
     I need to regain control of my diet, my weight, and my life. My goal is to be 117 lbs by the time school starts. Wish me luck!



Tuesday, August 13, 2013

8/12 Intake and Shoes!!

Breakfast:
Bagel Thin - 55
Spray Butter - 0
Lunch:
Peach Cup - 30
Cottage Cheese - 45
Cucumber - 8
Baby Carrots - 35
Prunes - 40
Dinner:
Olive Oil - 40
 Onions - 17
Bell Pepper - 9
Mushrooms - 8
Black Beans - 47
Corn - 66
Salsa - 25
Avocado - 96
Tortilla Chips - 140
Snacks:
Tortilla Chips - 140
Bean Dip - 30
Salsa - 13
Total: 844
Exercise: 291
Net: 553
     Okay, so yesterday wasn't the greatest day ever, but it wasn't the worst either. I almost didn't go for a run yesterday, but I did and it made me feel so much better! Also, yesterday I got my new shoes that I ordered from eBay and they're absolutely amazing. I'm feeling good about today. I'm hoping to make it better than yesterday!

Monday, August 12, 2013

To Do Before Weigh-In

     Since I'm really scared about me weigh-in in two days, I've devised a plan that has to work to get me to the weight I want to be. I have to follow it exactly as it is! 
     Today: I'm going to eat my lunch that i brought today, and no other snacks. When I get home, I am going to put my sheets into the wash and then going for a 30 minute jog. Then I'm going to take a shower and have dinner. If my mom is making dinner, I will just have a little of what she makes. If not, then I will make a mixture of beans and veggies with salsa on it. I will not eat any snacks after this, even if I have "left over" calories. After dinner, I will clean and put away my clean laundry. Then I will paint my nails. while watching netflix. Then I will organize things for school. Finally I will call my boyfriend and go to sleep.
     Tomorrow: I'm going to go through my normal work day. After work, I will do some more laundry and then 30 minutes of pilates. Then I'll shower. After I will have dinner. If my mom doesn't cook then I'll have a salad with a veggie burger cut up on it. After dinner I will clean and then organize things for school again. Then I will watch netflix and NOT eat any snacks. Then I'll talk to my boyfriend and go to bed.
     If I follow this plan, I should definitely be able to get to 120lbs by Wednesday. Then I will make a similar plan for the next week. If I make a precise plan, then I'm more likely to follow it.


Wednesday, August 7, 2013

8/7 Intake

Breakfast:
Bagel Thin - 55
Spray Butter - 0
Lunch:
Peaches - 30
Cottage Cheese - 45
Cucumber - 8
Baby Carrots - 35
Prunes - 40
Dinner:
Udon Noodles - 250
Snacks:
Pecan Honey Crunch - 75
Mushrooms - 8
Jalapeno Cheddar Dip - 60
Bell Pepper - 23
Baby Carrots - 21
Total: 650
Exercise: 76
Net: 574
     I'm really happy with how today went. I'm glad that I'm having breakfast again. It really works for me. Dinner was because I was super hungry and my mom wasn't home from the grocery store yet. It's just a simple stove top noodle pack, but it's good. I did say earlier that I wasn't going to have snacks at work, but people just expect me to eat it because I'm thin. So I had the Pecan honey thing, but it was just a little. After dinner I waited about 30 mins and then made a snack. Fresh veggies are amazing. You can eat so much for barely any calories. I cut up a bunch of veggies and dipped them in this dip we have. I'm going to see if we can get like "diet" dip to use. If I stay on this track, then I can lose weight really easily!

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

8/6 Intake

Lunch:
Green beans - 17
Cottage Cheese - 45
Peaches - 30
Black beans - 35
Corn - 33
Dinner:
Corn Chips - 70
Black beans - 47
Corn - 66
Onions - 17
Over Easy Egg - 70
Salsa - 25
Olive Oil - 20
Snacks:
Jelly Donut Thing - 150
Prunes - 40
Total: 665
Exercise: 267
Net: 398
     I'm really proud with today. I've been binging like crazy lately and it's nice to have a good day. I went for a run today, because my therapist told me that I really need to be working out instead of spending all day on my butt. Today I went food shopping with my mom and I always buy too much. I got cucumber, carrots, avocado, rice cakes, prunes, zero noodles. I go so overboard. All I wanted were these Asian noodle microwave meals and the store didn't even have them. I was able to get microwave Udon noodles that don't have meat product in it! That'll be a treat for one night. 
     Tomorrow is my weekly weight in day, and I'm scared. My stomach is HUGE. I haven't made a bowel movement in 3 days, going on to 4 days. I know that this is going to fuck up my weigh in. Ugh. Why does my body hate me? Oh yeah. Because I can't decide if I'm going to starve myself or stuff 10,000 calories down my throat. :/

Favorite Low Calorie Foods

     I always have to stock up on low-calorie foods that I can eat without feeling guilty. This is a list of my favorites, by category. Feel free to comment with low-cal foods that you like!
Vegetables: carrot sticks, bell pepper, mushrooms, green beans, cucumbers, baby spinach, onion, tomato, Green Giant steam bags, broccoli. You can make a big salad or you can cook up a BUNCH of veggies for a low-cal., yet filling, meal.
Fruit: Peach cups, applesauce, watermelon, apples, oranges, strawberries, raspberries. I like to have fruit as a snack because it's sweet. If you buy packaged fruit (like in a can) make sure it's in water (not syrup) with no sugar added.
Grain: Sandwich thins, Bagel thins, low-fat crackers, quinoa. The sandwich thins are 100 calories for one. That's like 2 pieces of bread for 100 calories. The bagel thins are 110 calories each. You can have half a bagel for 55 calories. Yum.
Dairy: low-fat or fat-free cottage cheese, low-fat or fat-free mozzarella, light Silk soy milk. I always get cheese cravings really bad, and fat-free cottage cheese is 40 calories for 1/4 cup. It's good plain or with fruit mixed in. The light soy milk I get is 50 calories for 1 cup.
Protein: Gardein Crispy Tenders, tofu, black beans. I'm a vegetarian, and I LOVE the gardein tenders. Trader Joe's has their own brand too. They're 50 calories each and go awesome on top of salad. Tofu and black beans make good additions to food and the protein keeps you full.
Drinks: diet coke, tea, black coffee, water, diet/light juice. Most "light juices have 50 calories or under per cup.

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

7/31 Intake

Lunch:
Mushrooms - 8
Cucumber - 8
Baby Carrots - 35
Apple Sauce - 50
Cottage Cheese - 45
Dinner:
Minestrone Soup - 120
Snacks:
Lays Potato Chips - 160
Buffalo Dip - 50
Ice Cream Cake - 165
Total: 640
Exercise: 277
Net: 364
     First off, I know my exercise usually says I burn like 600 calories a day, but that's because I had my pedometer app hooked up to MyFitnessPal and I didn't like that. It made me feel like I could eat so much more. I changed it so that it doesn't automatically put in calories burned. I had the cake today because it was my dad's birthday! I was also lucky because mum burnt dinner so I was able to make my own stuff. Light soup in the microwave. Very filling.
     I went for a run today! I did 2.4 miles. I haven't run this far since April. I'm really proud of myself. I burned over 200 calories from it too. It took me thirty minutes, but I still did it. I'm hoping to go for another jog on Friday. I'm still keeping up with the 30 day squat challenge and damn my legs are sore. But you know what they say, no pain no gain!

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

7/30 Intake

Breakfast:
Diet Coke - 0
Lunch:
Cottage Cheese - 40
Cucumber - 8
Baby Spinach - 9
Baby Carrots - 35
Apple Sauce - 50
Dinner:
Quinoa - 170
Pasta Sauce - 80
Mushrooms - 20
Onions - 17
Olive Oil - 20
Snacks:
Peanut Butter Nips - 30
Cucumber - 8
Chex Mix - 130
Nectarine - 62
Total: 679
Exercise: 683
Net: -4
     I cooked dinner for the whole family tonight. A delicious mixture of quinoa, tomato sauce, mushrooms and onions. For those who don't know, quinoa is a grain-like substance that is super delicious. It's actually a seed that's found in South America. It has every amino acid that the body needs to survive. This is great for vegetarian because a few amino acids are hard to find outside of animals products. Quinoa plain tastes like weird oatmeal, but if you mix it with any kind of sauce (tomato sauce and salsa are my favs) then it tastes amazing. It's not toooooo high in calories. And every calorie is worth it! Try it sometime!
     I ate a lot. Again. As always. But I'm having another good day. I've been trying to think positively about things. And I ordered new shoes on eBay. They're shipping from China, so it'll take a month. But I'll post a picture when I get them!!

Monday, July 29, 2013

7/29 daily intake

Breakfast:
Diet coke - 0
Lunch:
Apple Sauce - 50
Baby Carrots - 35
Baby Spinach - 9
Cucumber - 8
Cottage Cheese - 40
Dinner:
Tortilla - 150
Mushrooms - 40
Onions - 17
Baby Spinach - 6
Salsa - 5
Olive Oil - 20
Snacks:
Tootsie Rolls - 47
Popsicle - 45
Low Fat Oatmeal Granola Bar - 120
Total: 592
Exercise: 555
Net: 37
     I ate a lot today, but I don't feel too bad because I'm full and won't want to binge later. I probably shouldn't have had the granola bar before therapy, but I was so hungry! I'm thinking of switching to an all plant diet when I go back to school in a month. Carbs are killing me. Plus, I can basically eat as much vegetables as I want. I'm feeling good today, let's hope that it lasts. My boyfriend is in a bad mood and I don't want it to wear off on me.

Friday, July 26, 2013

Self Confidence and Mints

     So many girls, not just ones with eating disorders, struggle with self confidence, and it sucks. When I was younger, I loved myself. I thought I was so beautiful. Then, one girl told me that thinking you are beautiful is selfish and egotistical, and I haven't felt the same way since. WHY? Why do people think it's "selfish" to have self confidence? What is so bad about liking yourself.
     I made a big step today though with self confidence. I've been trying to convince myself that I don't care what other people think about me. There's all these things I want to wear, but I'm always too afraid that people will think I'm weird or ugly. I want to be one of those girls that wears heels all the time. I think heels are so feminine, yet they give you a certain power. I'm always too afraid what people will think. I always feel like I can't pull them off. Well today I decided fuck what people think, I'm wearing heels. I bought a cute pair of wedge sandal in March and I've only worn them twice, for Easter and a graduation party. Today I wore them. Not to a special occasion, but because I wanted to. I wore them to the bank AND to Target. I did have some anxiety about it, but not too bad. I just kept telling myself "I don't care" and it worked! I'm really proud of myself that I was confident enough to do that.
     While I was at Target, I picked up some mints. I was originally there buying a scale, which I got, but I saw some Altoids and thought they would be good to help me quit smoking. Well guess what? There's only 1/2 a calories in each mint! They're the Altoid smalls and they give you just enough to make your mouth pepperminty without being too much. Plus apparently peppermint supresses appetite, so that's nice. Whenever I get super hungry, I'll just pop a mint! It's great.
     I'm trying to fast for the rest of the day. My parents won't be home until late, so I can skip meals. Just need to keep busy for the rest of the day! Working on a new blog layout (;
 

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

7/23 Intake

Breakfast:
Diet Coke - 0
Lunch:
Nothing - 0
Dinner:
Flour Tortilla - 150
Taco Cheese - 50
Salsa - 15
Onion - 8
Mushroom - 10
Baby Spinach -2
Total: 235
Exercise: 642
Net: -407
     So I broke my fast at 8PM tonight. I know, it's not the best, but at least I did some fasting. I was feeling dizzy so I made a weird veggie burrito and it was delicious. I was going to eat these microwave noodles, but they were gross. The best part about today is If every day were like today you'd weigh 97.9 lbs in five weeks. So happy about that.Obviously I can't eat this little every day, but it's a start. I think I'm going to do that same thing tomorrow. Let's aim for 24 hours instead of 22 this time?

Monday, July 22, 2013

7/22 Intake

Breakfast:
Diet Coke - 0
Lunch:
Bay Spinach - 9
Cottage Cheese - 40
Apple Sauce - 50
Baby Carrots - 35
Cucumber - 8
Dinner:
Asian Spicy Kung Pao Noodle - 220
Snacks:
Diet Coke - 0
Cookie - 137
Total: 499
Exercise: 539
Net: -40
     I know I said I wasn't going to eat dinner, but I felt a binge coming on so I had a microwave meal. I also at a cookie at work because one of the guys gave it to me and wouldn't leave until I ate it. Ugh. But I'm under 500 so that makes me happy.